Monthly Archives: May 2010

The Last Leg

Wanted to capture this moment in words and digitally… I am not really hit by the huge tide of those emotions of “end of an era”, probably ‘coz I’m too occupied with the IT-farewell planning and a ghostly subject like SOM, which kick-starts (and kicks my ass) the last leg of engineering, the final exams tomorrow. Or it’s also because I have had enough of those nostalgic feelings and posts. I’m almost saturated.

I dunno what is this meant to be?, how is this feeling supposed to be? The feeling hasn’t really sunk in yet. I don’t feel like I’m grown up to be called an engineer. There’s so much for me to learn. I don’t feel like ending the engineering studying stupid subjects(Blame the BE syllabus). I think I have long miles to go. Engineering suddenly looks like a casual affair, like a quick ride. I just don’t want to stuff this post with the descriptions of how engineering was to me. Then too, I wanna record this moment. Who knows, I may want to cherish this moment again(virtually, if not live)! And somehow, this post will come to me as a completely different one and maybe make me cry! Although I’m not yet sentimental (which is weird!) about this whole thing, I can just think of those last 10 mins. of my last paper. Will I be in any mental state to write anything then? Plus after my exams, I have a lot to catch up with; which means not having to meet my regular friends for a while. The office joining follows quickly. And it eradicates the hope of meeting my friends on the 1st day of new semester, as it used to be. Will I be perfectly okay with the fact that there’s no more this “1st day of semester” left in my life? At the start of every semester there was this one thing I always used to look forward to: An Art Circle Meeting. That phase’s gone and I’ve to come to terms to it. I won’t feel like I will be owning the college campus anymore, like I do now. Currently, it’s my place. I’ll be a visitor tomorrow. And the time difference isn’t even big enough to let me live it off. Goosebumps! I wish I could portray my feelings well. I’m ruining this post. I should stop.
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Nothing Else Matters!

So close, no matter how far
Couldn’t be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
and nothing else matters
 

Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don’t just say
and nothing else matters
 

Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us something new
Open mind for a different view
and nothing else matters
 

never cared for what they do
never cared for what they know
but I know
 

So close, no matter how far
Couldn’t be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
and nothing else matters
 

never cared for what they do
never cared for what they know
but I know
 

Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don’t just say
and nothing else matters
 

Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us, something new
Open mind for a different view
and nothing else matters
 

never cared for what they say
never cared for games they play
never cared for what they do
never cared for what they know
and I know
 

So close, no matter how far
Couldn’t be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
No, nothing else matters

 

For all those who know (and worship, therefore) or do not know, this a chartbuster track from Metallica. While I’m not much into metal, this song simply takes my breath away and mesmerizes me like anything. They call “Metallica” Gods… I don’t need to ask why, if they can boast of such heavenly compositions. I can resonate so much with the feelings expressed in the song. WOW! This is what I am, this is what I’ve done in my past four years, this is what I would call an “anthem” (As Manan puts it) for my beloved art circle. Metallica, take a bow! \m/.
 

Please give a listen to this song, if you haven’t! If you’ve missed it, it’s like missing living in the era when the God of Cricket played (and still playing), like missing the monsoons of Mumbai, like missing your Birthday Cake, like missing so much!

Here’s the link to the song, it’s S & M version, the best by Metallica. Courtesy: Manan
 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bAsA00-5KoI

Happy Mother’s Day

“अरे प्रतीक, उठ जरा! जा, जाऊन भाजी आण!”

“ए झोपू दे न ग आई! काल उशीर झाला झोपायला…” (मी आपला रात्री gtalk  आणि facebook वर ‘busy ‘ असल्यामुळे साहजिक च सकाळी उशिरा उठणार)
माझी किरकिर सुरु च होती. नव्हतं जायचं मला!

“अरे उठ ना रे! मी काय रोज जायला सांगते का तुला?”

“मी रोज गेलो पण नसतो” मी ठामपणे सांगितले. असली कामं नाही जमत मला. कशाला सांगत असतेस? मी मनातच बोललो.

“अरे म्हणूनच! आज चे दिवस तरी जा”

“बंर! ठीके! काय काय आणायचंय?” मी चिडचिड करत उठलो.

“ही घे list. नीट बघून आण भाज्या. खालच्या stalls वर चांगल्या मिळतात भाज्या”

झोपेचं खोबरं झालं म्हणून स्वतःशीच चीडचीड करत मी जवळ च्या Reliance Store मध्ये गेलो. Stallsच काही बुवा आपल्याला कळत नाही, तिथे आई करते तशी bargaining काही आपल्याला जमत नाही, ह्या विचाराने मी Reliance वर “Rely ” करायचे ठरवले. तिथे खूप भाज्या होत्या. List बघितली. भाज्या निवडताना कुठली चांगली कुठली खराब हे कळतच नव्हतं. “वास घ्यावा का?” मी मनाशीच म्हटलं. तेवढ्यात एक काका आले. माझ्यासमोरच्या भाजी च्या टोपल्यातील भाजी पटापट निवडून पुढे गेले. मला काही कळलंच नाही. “ह्यांनी काय बघून भाजी निवडली?”. आई ची आठवण आली. “आई ला बरं कळतं भाज्यांचं. आपलं कधी डोकं चालणार? कि मला अनुभव नसल्यामुळे “confusion” होतंय? जाऊ दे! जास्त डोकं नको लावायला” असा विचार करीत मग मी पटपट भाजी घेतली. एखाद्या भाजी समोर म्हणजे कोबी दिसली तेव्हा उगाच कोबी हातात धरून तिचे चौफेर निरीक्षण करून “ही दिसायला तर shape मध्ये uniform दिसते आणि रंग पण कसा हिरवागार आहे!” असे निरीक्षण लावून मी “मला पण कळतं. मी जिंकलोय”  ह्या आविर्भावात भाजी घेतली आणि घरी गेलो.

दुपारी जेवणात कोबी होती. खूप चरबट लागली. चव जरा वेगळीच होती. मी आई कडे त्याची complaint सुरु केली. आई, “थांब भाजी जरा ठीक करून देते” म्हणाली. तेवढ्यात मला सकाळी भाजी आणल्यानंतर आई ने केलेली तक्रार आठवली. “भाजी fresh बघून का नाही आणली? कोबी निव्वळ कच्ची आहे.” पुढच्या terms मला काही कळाल्या नाहीत. “मग असली कामं मला सांगत नको जाऊ” असे मी तिला निक्षून सांगत पुढचे conversation ignore केले. ह्या सगळ्यांचा विचार करत असताना आईने परत शिजवलेली भाजी समोर ठेवली. मला स्वतःचीच लाज वाटली. मीच भाजी आणली होती आणि मीच आता complaint करतोय.  मला कळायला हवं. आई सोबत चारदा जाऊन भाजी आणली तर च कळेल, कसं असतं ते? भाज्यांचंच काय? कुठून श्रीरामपूरचेच पापड मागव. नाशिककडचाच भात आण. अमुक ठिकाणचेच तमुक मागव and so on! अशी सगळी धडपड सुरु च असते तिची. बायकांची कामं mindless असतात असा बर्याच पुरुषांचा (गैर)समज आहे. पण आज भाजी आणल्यावर मला कळालं कि आमच्या “so called ” brain ला योग्य “खुराक” पोचवण्यासाठी बनवलेल्या जेवणासाठी पण किती विचार करावा लागतो! रोज चा मेनू विचारपूर्वक वेगळा ठेवणे. अमुक गोष्टी सोबत तमुक खाल्ल्यास ते बाधते ह्याचे लक्ष ठेवणे. परीक्षेच्या वेळी, गरमागरम पण सुस्ती न आणणारे पौष्टिक जेवण घालणे, हे सगळं आईलाच कसं भारी कळत. घरातली प्रत्येक वस्तू, खायची, वापरायची, आई किती काळजीने आणि विचारपूर्वक आणते. मला complaint करायला सोपं आहे कि “हा कप च हिडीस आहे. आज जेवण च नाही आवडलं. घरात घाण च किती.” complaints काही थांबत नाहीत. पण शेवटी आई आमच्याच सोयी साठी तर झटते.  धन्य आहे स्त्री जात. कमाल आहे आई ची. मी आई ला मनातल्या मनात “sorry” म्हटलं आणि खूप धन्यवाद दिले.

Oh , BTW , Happy Mother ‘s Day …!!! Respect your Mother and care for her. We have no idea how much she cares for us, in small and little ways!

Boondein…

Life at 1.45 am, Place: My Bedroom, State of mind: Stateless…
Life is found to be at perfect bliss! Finished watching my favourite shot from movie ‘Wake Up Sid!’. It’s the climax scene where in Ranbir realises his love for Konkona while reading her dream article in Ranbir’s dream magazine when Mumbai’s aah-so-beautiful first rain descends. They both meet at Nariman Point – one place I would always want to be at, to experience the rains! Cudos to the director! He’s captured the rain so beautifully! And to make the scene even more lovely, you have 2 wonderful, fresh n full-of-life actors, Konkona and Ranbir. Adorable! Okay, back to me n my room! There’s amazing weather outside. The Nature God dawned upon us today. Very soothing and surreal breeze was flowing in the evening taking away the scorching heat. A perfect time to hang around with close friends. Not just hang around! Roam around!!! Where do we find ourselves? Khadakwasla. Crowded place. (We later realized it was a Sunday :)). Nonetheless, it din’t stop us from having our share of fun. Rain started pouring in. My very first experience to be so much near the water and  be blessed by the divinity of Rain-God! Could I ask for more?
Kaash hum har lamha dil me kaid rakh paate? Kyaa Kare… Dil toh baccha hain jee…!

On a different note, why look for joy elsewhere and be sad for not finding it, when it is “showered” upon you in small and little ways?

and now I switch back to the super-awesssome track of the movie,

“Jo Barse Sapne Boon-Boond, Naino ko Moond-Moond
Kaise Main Chalu? Dekh Na Saku! Anjaane Raaste…….”


Photo-courtesy: Anuj Kolekar.
PS: I recommend everyone watching the movie Wake Up Sid! – a very coming-of-age film. Not the typical one!

PPS: I just realised, I’ve finished one year of blogging. Anniversary! Reasons to celebrate. YAY! I’ll do the year-roundup soon 🙂

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