Wanted to capture this moment in words and digitally… I am not really hit by the huge tide of those emotions of “end of an era”, probably ‘coz I’m too occupied with the IT-farewell planning and a ghostly subject like SOM, which kick-starts (and kicks my ass) the last leg of engineering, the final exams tomorrow. Or it’s also because I have had enough of those nostalgic feelings and posts. I’m almost saturated.
I dunno what is this meant to be?, how is this feeling supposed to be? The feeling hasn’t really sunk in yet. I don’t feel like I’m grown up to be called an engineer. There’s so much for me to learn. I don’t feel like ending the engineering studying stupid subjects(Blame the BE syllabus). I think I have long miles to go. Engineering suddenly looks like a casual affair, like a quick ride. I just don’t want to stuff this post with the descriptions of how engineering was to me. Then too, I wanna record this moment. Who knows, I may want to cherish this moment again(virtually, if not live)! And somehow, this post will come to me as a completely different one and maybe make me cry! Although I’m not yet sentimental (which is weird!) about this whole thing, I can just think of those last 10 mins. of my last paper. Will I be in any mental state to write anything then? Plus after my exams, I have a lot to catch up with; which means not having to meet my regular friends for a while. The office joining follows quickly. And it eradicates the hope of meeting my friends on the 1st day of new semester, as it used to be. Will I be perfectly okay with the fact that there’s no more this “1st day of semester” left in my life? At the start of every semester there was this one thing I always used to look forward to: An Art Circle Meeting. That phase’s gone and I’ve to come to terms to it. I won’t feel like I will be owning the college campus anymore, like I do now. Currently, it’s my place. I’ll be a visitor tomorrow. And the time difference isn’t even big enough to let me live it off. Goosebumps! I wish I could portray my feelings well. I’m ruining this post. I should stop.